The other day I spent about $70 on a stamp pad, two sets of charcoal, a piece of paper and four markers. If anyone ever questions why artists are poor, the reason kind of speaks for itself.
I’m making plenty of things but keep feeling guilty for not making more things. This guilt trip cycle is a little insane because the more I feel like I should be making more things the less I feel like making them, and then I get more guilty and less productive in a constant loop.
I like to remind myself that anything more than zero is exactly that, and it usually does the trick.
Over the long weekend I watched the following films:
12 Monkeys (1996) Terry Gilliam
La Jetée (1962) Chris Marker
Logan’s Run (1976) Michael Anderson
Brazil (1985) Terry Gilliam
Barbarella (1968) Rogar Vadim
Suspiria (1977) Dario Argento
The Stranger (1946) Orson Welles
Citizen Kane (1941) Orson Welles
Live and Let Die (1973) Guy Hamilton
I’m still on a long way to recovery from all that. I was also supposed to analyse three images from an illustrator, finish my illustrations and do a lot more filming for the tiny 30 second film I made for 2D Hybrid but all those films took up a lot more hours than I somehow expected them to.
I had a relatively confusing 24 hours today, but that’s all fine because I made it through to the other side and now I’m probably going to suffer from no sleep tomorrow morning but hopefully I give myself enough time to get a coffee before class. Somehow I don’t think I will.
I forgot what it was like being back in animation. It’s barely been a week and I’m already stressed out, but I also forgot what it was like to constantly be making things, and that’s real swell. All my older bad habits are coming back when it comes to workflow but I don’t think my heart is as strong as it used to be after a year away so hopefully that means I take care of myself a little better than I used to. No more 16 hour days while forgetting to eat.
Suspiria is one of the most visually striking films I’ve ever seen and everyone should watch it. Shout out to Jenny who has one of the best tastes in film I’ve ever come across. I would probably watch anything and everything she recommends.
As much as I complain, I’ve missed all this. That being said, I’m having a pretty tough time readjusting. That being said, I’ve never actually had to live in the exact situation I’m in now, so it’s hardly readjusting and more… Just adjusting in general. So, all in all, fairly forgivable if I do say so myself.
I need to drink more water,
Annie.
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